sad

Got a call today saying a friend of the family was 20 weeks preg. and lost the baby, well of course on our diffucult journey to try to get preg It makes me sad to hear things like this my heart goes out to ppl that lose, or cant have kids. Well then we find out she was  giving the baby up for adoption to her mother which we are friends with her mother , well closer to her mother then her. So I question her mom and she was saying how she had thought of us when her daughter said she didnt want the kid she already has two so she wanted to end the preg. her mom said she urged her saying that She thought it would be a good idea to let my husband and I adopt the kid well desi being the kinda of person she is said no not going to happen well her mom said well let me and ur step dad adopt well she agreed to that .... well after she miscarried they took the usual drug test omg  i am so upset with what the results said she was on numerous amount of drugs omg does she not know what a gift that is from God to not take precautions even if u didnt want it. Well the babys head was damaged as if she tried to make her self miscarry this is so disturbing and I can only pray that God deals with her And I pray that God forgive me for thinking ill of her, I pray he gives me the strength to be the christian women I am. They are having a lil service tomorrow for the baby, I hope i can hold it all togeather  b/c it hits very close to home . What a sweet innocent life inside of her to not protect it. Im trying and praying not to get angry but y do ppl like that get preg at the drop of a pin and we that are good parents to my husbands c hildren have such a difficult time getting preg. I guess God has his reasons even tho we dont see them And God knows our future.