when

When did my life end up to just waking up in the morning dragging the day on and bed at night.
Growing up I'd always thought there be more to my life then just this. Had plans and I was guna do something with my life I .Have a husband and step kids. No kids of my own I just sit here and watch other ppl have babys but still go out just throw the kid off to a babysitter. Why is that the kinda ppl that have kids. Why Cant I have that b/c I know that being a mother is something I would be great at. Well I guess my life will not ever amount to ne thing guess God doesnt have great plans for me. I feel as tho I'm in the back seat of a car thats stuck in a traffic jam, and other cars behind me and ahead of me go around me and get somewheres. guess this is it

good friday

what we did on good friday .... nothing stayed home all day what are we doing fo easter weekend prolly nothing lol!! Itdoesnt bother me tho b/c its always go go go with us it feel good to stay home!! check out this site i found bout going green http://www.ufeelgood.info/

the devil is a lier

As I into the word of God reading it from begning to end I knew on the journey of reading it there would be things to over come b/c the devil will try ne thing to discourage the work of God in progress well TODAY  had  knock on the door from a sherrif officer for my husband well i wonder what in the world is going on well backkkkk before we were married about five years ago my husband had missed balanced his check book, well he had went to the bank and "FIXED" it well apperantly it wasn't all "FIXED" So now we have to pay this stuff that has added up over a five year period. Well usually I would get down and mad about these things why is this happening to me but as a born again chrisitan deep into the word of God I only know that God will bless us for this rough road . The devil things he is funny but the Joke is on him B/c I will over come and previl even in the hard times Just like Joseph did  in Genius if you dont knwo the story Joesph had been accused of  wrong doing that he did not do and spent yearrrrssss in prision even tho God promised him blessings before that had happen he didnt give up even after years of being in there Until finally God granted him his blessings Joseph stayed faithful thru everything! As will I nothing will come between the blessings that God has promised My family and I . I serve a big God so keep em coming! Faith in God is all I need and Faith is what I have!!! Thank you Jesus for the blessings you will bestow on my family and I !!

alex baseball game

Tonight at my stepsons baseball game it was a very close game well at the last inning our team was at bat we were down by 2 one of his team mates was running to third , third base caught the ball so he ran back to second , second dropped it sso he was running trying to hit base his foot then hit base before the boy tagged him and dont u knwo that taged the runner as out such a crappy call b/c  his foot was on base thats okay we will get em next game!!

sad

Got a call today saying a friend of the family was 20 weeks preg. and lost the baby, well of course on our diffucult journey to try to get preg It makes me sad to hear things like this my heart goes out to ppl that lose, or cant have kids. Well then we find out she was  giving the baby up for adoption to her mother which we are friends with her mother , well closer to her mother then her. So I question her mom and she was saying how she had thought of us when her daughter said she didnt want the kid she already has two so she wanted to end the preg. her mom said she urged her saying that She thought it would be a good idea to let my husband and I adopt the kid well desi being the kinda of person she is said no not going to happen well her mom said well let me and ur step dad adopt well she agreed to that .... well after she miscarried they took the usual drug test omg  i am so upset with what the results said she was on numerous amount of drugs omg does she not know what a gift that is from God to not take precautions even if u didnt want it. Well the babys head was damaged as if she tried to make her self miscarry this is so disturbing and I can only pray that God deals with her And I pray that God forgive me for thinking ill of her, I pray he gives me the strength to be the christian women I am. They are having a lil service tomorrow for the baby, I hope i can hold it all togeather  b/c it hits very close to home . What a sweet innocent life inside of her to not protect it. Im trying and praying not to get angry but y do ppl like that get preg at the drop of a pin and we that are good parents to my husbands c hildren have such a difficult time getting preg. I guess God has his reasons even tho we dont see them And God knows our future.

soo what to talk about today

Not much to blog about today, I couldnt sleep last night! Then woke up to a crying baby lol!! Well I got in some eco friendly stuff in today and I'm loving it esp the tooth paste did u know that tooth paste you buy from ur regualr stores contains falmadihide in it omgggg!!

oh man

SOOOO my laptop charger broke tonight. OH how I will feel so lost without it!!!!!!!!!!! Will be checking mail everyday for new one!! on that same note i am moving on to exodus in the bible oh yeah did i tell ya that i decided to read bible front to back no skipping no just reading scriptures!! Guess that was Gods way of tellin me hey you didnt spend time with me today u spent to much time on that lap top!!! On the green note I have to think of ways to explain to my friends and family the importance on going green!!